Hi folks!!! Well I am back again with a new blog full of depression.
This past week I learned a lot about life. From the day 1 to the very end, it was a week that tested me and kinda left me alone and wrecked.
Before this week, i never felt myself so much alone n helpless like i do now. I do realize that it all had to do with me and only me. There was nobody else to blame for that what happened.
The week started with great enthusiasm n a lot of energy as always. There was a great plan out there in mind of arranging a wonderful party for ma seniors.
The very next day was the day when clock started ticking backwards for me. Had a very minor incident in the college which grew into a very big thing with some fuel from those whom i considered my closed ones. That fuel mixed up with my ever growing anger resulted into a very shameful result which in beginning made me feel better but later when i gained my true self back, i started hating myself for that.
Almost two days passed by in apologizing n introspecting. Meanwhile my exams were also going on, but all the attention was far away from studies. So these exams were a total disaster for my career.
After doing a chain of acts to show that I am sorry, i started feeling a lot better. But still there was an acute pain deep inside my heart. That special corner of my heart is what i call my BEST BUD'S PLACE.
That one special person for whom i can do anything was very upset with me for how i behaved. I tried to do whatever i could just to please him. Never in my dreams, that i wanted to see him go away from me, but as they said "Nothing stays for long."
I cried a lot because I had no one to hug and say "I love u yaar".
May be GOD saw me crying so he sent someone from the blue skies to accompany me. I started getting closer to that person n in a matter of two days we became gud friends. I just hope n pray that GOD doesn't take him back from me as i dont have any patience left in me to suffer another blow.
I still miss that special person n just hope that he realizes that I am a normal human who can commit mistakes.
The last day was better to some extent coz we finally organised a party n danced a lot.
Before this week-- "To err is human, to forgive is divine".
After this week---- "To err isn't human, to forgive is stupid".
